Shattered

Hell gate is wide open and welcome everyone and because of this we think the hell is generous of letting everyone in. Heaven's gate are narrow, everyone wants to get in but not all of them get to squeez in to the hell of it. The body is one's weakness and tool for three controllers, it was either the devil, you or God. What is this game is all about? Every human mind never wake up healthy enough to think that tommorow is the end of the world, and there are full of excuses that man made for sins to occupy. What happens if you do not repent on the last day for repentence? Do you really wanted to wait until God's wrath is here only you started to tremble with fear and yell for forgiveness? God will not answer that mourn for He has given out all the time you needed to repent yet you are ignorant and foolish enough not to repent before the day come. Then you are shattered in to pieces that you can't even know what happen to your soul and spirit when God gave the order to excute helluva of you. Do you not know that God's grace is for your repentance? Or do you not know that God's wrath is for your judgement?

Fool, you think that the ways you do will brings you towards relaxation after all these stressors that are given for you from everywhere. You think you were right about the way you use to release your tensions but God is never happy of you while you doing it in ungodly ways. His eyes are upon you and do you not know that when you are sinning again you are putting Jesus to go through the calvary and nail on the cross all over again? What do you feel when you see Jesus bearing up all your sins that are not His and die for you? What price does He give to redeem you back to Him? - His life! You such ignorant fools are not you brought back by His life? Yet you still make Him pay more for you low life creatures. You asked why you do not have energy to proceed on glorify God, why your spirit are dry, why your wisdoms are diminishing and this is the answer why! You have make a hindrance, a wall that restricted God's presence in you. Sin make away God's presence because He doesn't likes sin, and your temple is filty.

Clean up! For your flesly desires are making you blind, if your eyes cause you to sin tore them out and cast it away, and if your right hand cause you to sin chop it off and throw it away, because it is better that a part of your body to be thrown into hell rather than your whole body is casted in to hell. When you do clean up the temple, not just sweep away the spider nets but kill also the spiders. Those nails on the walls, pull it out though there are holes on it, but it is better than to let those nails continuing to stuck there and may cause even more pain. So let the past be past and the lesson for you to learn, and focus on what today you can do that rafrain you from God's anger and plan for the future of what can make God smiles. You can't stop or stay Idle, because the days are evil, you make a smallest mistake in the path then you are to wound yourself with sin. God has already given his signal boards on your highway, it is up to you to follow his path, but other than that road is never going to be a success, but when do you wanted that success the price is to suffer with Jesus and take up the cross and follow God's way of living.

For now, I know you suffered anxiety over the worldly matters, things like your acedemic life, your future career, your assignments, Midterm exams and the services that you give in the church. But what God wanted to remind you that He sees you in the heart which is reflected in your attitude, your actions and the perceptions over all these things. Therefore be prepared, for the end time is near, wise is those who counted their time therefore they lived a life that are seeking to glorify God always. I know you are mindful of your personal relationship with God but, if you do not let go of your own ways, the trueself of you will never reveal, your question about where had your realself go? Where had your talent hidden? Why is it that you have many locked potentials that you can't unlock? The key is in God's hand, he had already reached out this key in front your door, He is waiting on the other side of the door that you may come and open and recieve this giftis and blessings. He heard your prayers, you pray for wisdom, growth and unlocking your true potentials, and then he has given to you, it is all outside the door, just open it and invite Him in and He will bring along all these gift into your house.

BUT do not make this a habit though God's grace is sufficient, but it is all for your repentance, but in order to make you a disciple of His, you need to take up the cross and walk with Jesus. Not to let you grief over what the sin has done to you, know that God already forgiven you, and again do not make this a habit to sin and forgive by God, God has anger too, and the final goal is that you do not fall into sin again, but if you do sin, God's judgement is upon you. May the grace of the Lord continue to shines on you that you may one day step out from your fleshly ways and be righteous and holy in God's eyes. Peace be with you. - Thomas

High-strung!!!

The time never rest... so am I, unfortunately it wasn't came out what was expected. We expected that we could have a little bit more ease after the strings of activity about Jan Boom and after the Chinese New Year. I too expected that it would be a refreshing period of time to regain the mode of study and persuing all the way in the acedemic life but it did not turn out like that. All I do think is deadlines of every matters, I have overwhelmed by my business and fail to seek God. I am not quite sure about what is happening in my spiritual life? Have I not turn away from sin and getting out from temptations? But why my spirit is in such driness? Have not God always be with me? Why for now He seems like he is letting all challenges, for me to handle on my own completely? What more can I do, other than to seek God's help to face all these challenges?

Sometimes God did not turn you loose from your chains and lead you out from the jail by his angels, but He did use you abbundantly in your chains. I don't know why I am saying this, sounds like I had been chained... I am not Paul, and I am certainly not chained by prosecution, but I chained myself with all the burdens that hindered me from walking on God's directed path. I know God want me to learn, and all of this has already been filtered by God so that it is possible for me to overcome it. This morning I as what is worship? Isn't worship a heart of submission? Isn't it means a surrendered heart? My heart is troubled with all the obstacles in life and it might has to be the devil's work therefore even while I wanted to worship God druing my devotion, I can't feel God's present and not even have the mood while playing song for God. Therefore I have told my friends that I roboticalized.

Pray for me brothers and sisters, I needed your help for I can't stand alone with these great challenges, and especially you God, I needed you. I know my heart is troubled yet because of your coaching in my life I have grown tender in spirit and waited in patient though I am suffering in my very own sword. I know you never forsake me and always ready to help when I ask for it, I also understand sometimes you did not aid because you wanted me to learn something out of it. Then so be it God, may your will be done. My mind is still a little bit confused but I seek the wisdom from you God, please hear me.

"Be very careful, then, how you live—not as unwise but as wise, making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil. Therefore do not be foolish, but understand what the Lord's will is." - Ephisians 5: 15-17

"LET LOVE BE YOUR GUIDE"

New Year Transition Period

Chinese new year is 1 hour later, I bet they are going to crack those fire crackers... I am going to sleep that time haha, tomorrow have a huge day to go. I am excited that I can once come back to my mother church to serve as morning worship's pianist! Tomorrow the first thing we do when we get up is to pay God a visit during chinese new year. Knowingly without God there is no earth, no earth have no country, no country have no home, no home there wouldn't be me^^

I wanted to take this time to thank God that he has changes me, my thinking and the way I percieve and responses. Thank God I did not raise up as an anti-culturist, because I don't know how to answer what is Malaysian culture and what is an Asian value. Until now I still don't know how to answer it, but I know when I lived with intergrity and respect everyone with the manner of respect I pour out a string of aroma that everyone is well pleased. I remember what Paul said:

" For though I am free from all men, I have made myself a servant to all, that I might win the more; and to the Jews I became as a Jew, that I might win Jews; to those who are under the law, as under the law, that I might win those who are under the law; to those who are without law, as without law (not being without law toward God, but under law toward Christ), that I might win those who are without law; to the weak I became as weak, that I might win the weak. I have become all things to all men, that I might by all means save some. Now this I do for the gospel's sake, that I may be partaker of it with you.”- 1 Corinthians 9:19-23"

As for me I am happy that Vri rejoice in the Lord about her blessing, that all of her friends did not forsake her but celebrating her birthday and blessed her with words of blessing. I am rejoiced when I see her smiling and responded in happiness, and I wonder how great is it that she can have this happiness in her forever.

This Chinese New Year will be a different Celebration for me, I started to appreciate the things around me and the people around me. Hence I started to value what the elder values, paying respect and spell out all the words of blessing when meet up with friends and relatives. Again this is a changes God made in my life, sees that God is so important in my life. My heart is filled with love, joy and peace, because God hears my prayers. For the wisdom God gave me is, I shall not be complacent about my success for the success will not be a success without God. I am busy, and this is what makes this year a different kind of experience of CNY. Why am I busy? I am loaded with chunks of assignments that deadline is 10 days away and my midterm test will be held in two more weeks time, and I still need to preserver to remain in my good relationship with God and I am planning the music class syllabus for my fellow friends who interested to learn piano and guitar. I'm doing all this knowing that it is not for my benefit, but to everyone. Now I truely lived and understand what Joshua Gan use to share that Christians are as raw meat and after grilled by the fire of Holy Spirit, the aroma will springs out and that pleases everyone around who smell it. This reflected that I once use to say my life purpose is to live as a blessing of many, this is coming true in the work of the Holy Spirit in me.

As Miller my lovely sheperd shared with me that sometime when we feel nothing and unknown may be a transformation period and it is fragile when it doesn't have enough care for it. I know I have grown in the Spirit, but it hasn't gone into maturity yet, I really hope that one day in the right timing I will be a mature Christian that is like Christ. I hope this sharing encourages those who read and may God bless you.

"One of the teachers of the law came and heard them debating. Noticing that Jesus had given them a good answer, he asked him, "Of all the commandments, which is the most important?"

"The most important one," answered Jesus, "is this: 'Hear, O Israel, the Lord our God, the Lord is one. Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.'The second is this: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.'There is no commandment greater than these."

- Mark 12:28-31 -

"LET'S POUR OUT OUR AROMAS BECAUSE

IT PLEASE BOTH GOD AND MEN"

AMEN!

Vri's Tag @_@

① 被点者请在自己的网志上打上答案




② 请传给另外十个人



③ 传阅人请在这十位被点的人的留言板上通知他，他被点咯!



④ 这当中的十位不得拒绝


⑤ 被点者请注明被谁点了在哪里接到再传给下十位



⑥ 这些被点名者，你们被点会祝福



⑦ 不可回点哦，并且愿望会实现和得到幸福



+坐上幸福热气球，开始咯+


幸福热气球：第一阶段



① 绰号：Thomas, Tomato, Zombie



② 星座：Libria


③ 生日：1989/September/25



④ 兴趣：Plays piano and guitar, blogging, reading, editing terrains in a game.



⑤ 血型：A+


⑥ 最宝贵的东西：My piano ^_^



⑦ 最討厭的东西：Nothing gua...







幸福热气球：第二阶段



① 有喜欢的人吗：Tak tahu...


② 有交往吗：Null... (Nope)



③ 幸福吗：Woo, my God loves me and my parents lagi manja, hahaha!



④ 他很爱你吗：Who? My God? My Parents? or My friends?



⑤ 如果你有勇气最想是什么：Climb KK, presenting some music on a stage and much much more^_^







幸福热气球：第三阶段



① 你被谁点：Vri



② 他是你的谁：Friend, Coursemate, Classmate, Team-mate and Godly sister



③ 他的个性是：Not the same... dare to be different. Flexible and friendly.



④ 他长得怎样：What should I say? Beautiful? more like a bookworm XD



⑤ 跟他认识多久：240 days, but experience like years lolx.



⑥ 你想跟他说什么：Vri, Gambateh! You are great!



⑦ 如果他变成你的情人：Oh? I can't tell haha ^_^







幸福热气球：第四阶段



① 最爱的音乐：Classical and blues



② 最爱的季节：Spring, lovely green leaves and silent and peacefully



③ 最爱的卡通：Bleach and detective connan (But didn't catch up lately =.=)


④ 最爱的颜色：Olive Green



⑤ 最想去的国家：Europe


⑥ 最爱的水果：Apple and Honey Dew



⑦ 最爱的饮料：100plus =.=



⑧ 最爱的人：Secret (If I have to tell the truth) Lie: Not a person.






幸福热气球：第五阶段



① 你很爱哭吗：Nope, but it drops away anyway =.=



② 你很爱笑吗：Depends, but laughing is vital hahahahahahaha ^_^



③ 你是很有信心的人吗：Confidence level: 60% (not much right? but it depends on situation)



④ 你想要怎样的生活：Make a living by authoring books and compossing musics, live in a silent and peaceful natural town, and a lovely wife helping me... erm this one recorded in my journal lolx.



⑤ 你喜欢自己吗：Sure, self-esteem 90% (Fixed previously 40% haha)



⑥ 你喜欢音乐吗：Euphoric @_@



⑦ 你喜欢体育吗：Basketball!!! Football!!! Badminton!!! HUAT YAH!!!



⑧ 你喜欢跳舞吗：lol, not really but fun also haha.



⑨ 你很专情吗：专情is? Loyal to one love? It will reveal in action...



⑩ 你喜欢睡觉吗：Why not?



你喜欢唱歌吗：I will sing when I am happy...















幸福热气球：第六阶段



开始点名



1. PrinZeCalVin 快乐小王子- Can You Feel My Heart


2. u t a R i a n



3. AngiE's New LifE~



4. Growing up...



5. ˟小少女日记˟shyⱥn♫



6. *~c(_)橙市咖啡基地c(_)~*







「五号跟谁谈恋爱」Got meh?



「一号是男的还是女的」Male, Lelaki



「六号人很好吗」Great isn't she?



「二号很色吗」Nope, He is one big Gentlemen ^_^



「七号跟三号在一起吗」Jury is out -.- not enough people in the list



「十号喜欢一号吗」Jury is out -.-
「五号读那间学校」UTAR, Kampar, Perak.



「六号喜欢谁」Herself haha. >.<

「二号喜欢唱歌吗」Voice of UTAR >.< you say leh?



「你爱七号吗」Who is that?



「三号住哪」Degree in PR lo...



「十号跟你告白」Who?



「四号有宠物吗」Her new chicken friends in the Kampung ^_^





如果你有三个愿望，Tell me your wish :



① To get 3.5 CGPA in the end

② Become a Virtuoso Pianist

③ Become one great writter and composser

V-camp

After lots of struggle and pressures that came from everywhere this V-camp was succeeded yesterday (6-7 FEB 2010). As I have sick for the whole week I did not recover, and today I am damn sickening again, maybe today is the last stage of my sickness, so getting serious then recover ler.

Previously I thought that this camp without freshmens it would not be a good camp. I was dissapointed about the minimal responses the freshmen give. We targetted 25 of them coming but sadly all of them not coming in the firstday but only 5 turn up in the second day (not included those freshmen that had been joining us for long time). I feel exactly how Sze Chuan feels, fed up with the numbers but blind ourselves not to see the miracle God put in this camp. Every event sure there is something gain, there is always success if we din't seek out all tiny failures. I realise it when it came to air-ball game that I am in charge with, if there is over 50 people come, I may not manage it so well but they had commented that my game is very exciting and fun, so I am comforted that at least they enjoy the game.

When it comes to reflection time, I admitted my faulty thinking and feelings and confessed that I also had been proud and complacent about my works that I have driven God away from me. As I was acting in the talent time, I also feels that I am so bad and sorry about my true condition that I am in. So sad that I had blind myself and creating a stearic hindrance in me that repulse back all God's blessing, because I am saturated myself with all the things that are in the world, e.g. my job, responsibility and my personal growth. I had sometimes boast about myself and this make me a fool. I should not compare to other brothers and sisters to build up my self-esteem, it can be build purely in my heart as long as I know that I already had do my best with what God has designed in me.

But the camp is miraculously a great camp that I ever had. Normally I was only a normal camper, but this time I became both a member of a team and also a facilitator. What a different experience, and most of all I am not the worst that being pressured, because no one is pressuring me. Miller and Vri was the one who taken up most responsibility and pressures from the elders. I admired their capability of managing the whole camp smoothly, while my little games had some technical error that could be avoid but it is not because of my mis-management and inexperience.

Okay now, funny is that my parent called me up yesterday while I am still in Adeline resthouse, there had no reception so my mum worried thought that I was missing. But see I am ok to writing a blog here, prove that I am safe. =.=

We need to as highly reactive molecules to form and break the born of other substances in this world and strongly bonded to Christ Jesus, and let the power of the holy spirit to enegize us to make stronger bond with Christ Jesus and the Almighty Father.

"DO NOT LET THE WORLD HINDRANCE YOU FROM GOD;

THAT REPULSES GOD'S BLESSING BACK FROM YOU"

Therefore Jesus said: "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." - John 14:27

Headache, mental-ache

Sorry today no picture...

Damn headache recently, I already get confused has my brain pained or my mind? Is it both pain in the same time? Why am I so frustrated? Am I over burden with all kinds of responsibility and get myself hay wired? What is the symptom that I am overloaded? When is my drawback line? Should I let everyone else to lead the assignment? Because now I feel it was like I am managing all the assignment that I had in hand. Please la, I know everyone is busy of something, but I juga nak masa lapang untuk rehat ma... macam tak de ruang je nak tidur pun macan tak cukup... tidur satu hari 7 jam tak cukup ke? Kenapa kepala saya masih sakit? Hari ini saya sudah pun sihat banyak deh, tapi kat malam kot orang bagi saya masalah saje... Kenapa selalu benda yang tak baik berlaku berterusan? Bilakah saya boleh rehat secukup-cukupnya? Dah lah, tak mau sebut tentang itu lagi la, eh kenapa cakap Melayu pulak =.=

When I sick ya please don't burden me, because I already had a burden on my own, headache is a symptom for me to draw back a little, I should give them in charge, and what is the reason I take these responsibilities up? Is it I can't wait? or feel that everyone else is slow to action? My mind is obssessed by assignments and other unecessary attention, first is the obsession of Pengajian Malaysia assignment and the second I headache about is the Developmental trends in Malaysia, all the policies thing provoke me to think on something I repressed in my subconscious long time ago. I started to raise question, why Malaysian citizens have to be so skepticism about all the bad things happened in the country, why all of us have to be so single sided and bais? Why all of us wanted to blind ourselves to all the destructive things in Malaysia rather than to spend the energy to think of how to make a better world tomorrow? You said the policies of Government doesn't work out, it is bais in this and that and racism everywhere, you said Bangsa Satu Malaysia doesn't exist, you said there is corruption, but have you think how to overcome all these issues? If you are the politician today what changes do you want to make? What is the thing that you want to build and dispute? Have you ever think of to encouraging the bumis by internal motivation rather than external motivation? E.g. higher pay, more priviledge and other benefits, these are all external motivation... but what is the motive of giving them such "keistimewaan" have you all forgotten? All people who study Pengajian Malaysia, studied in envy, intolerance, and subjective, the government is trying to make it  clear to all the student about what is going on with their plannings, have you ever try to cooperate with it? If not then I hope there is a better reason on how to make it a better planning.

I somewhat often I have dream of politicians and country crisis, this is sure that in my unconscious I concern about what happen in the country, is just that I repressed it into my unconscious so I do not headache over these darkness among politicians and citizens. I don't know, but I am sure this time the assignment I am going to shoot everything out that has been troubling me since long ago, and try to solve it in a harmony manner. I try to study the purpose and truth within the government and its values and see what can I do about it. What I try doesn't promise a change in anything, but I just want to learn more and see what truth can I reveal to all people to understand more. If I am passionate enough, the riot since 13 May 1969, I can make one movie out of it to make the nation to realise the violence of misunderstanding and without love. Ah! Where is the context of love within a country? Do everyone knows what is the true meaning of love? You fools! I bet you all don't understand, I pray that one day you all will foolishly awaken by God and make this country a revived country.

I am no body to say anything right now, but when the time come, if it is meant to be my time, then I will shed my patriot's blood on this land. No love, you have no commitment. No love, you have no direction, you are blind. No love, you have no hope and trust. No love, you would not understand. No love, you would not endure for it. No love, you will not die for it. Mana cinta kepada negara anda? Has you all fools think that love is simply lust? Have you fools think that love can blind you? Is love for you is just applied in sex not for relationship? What is love to you then? Have you ever treat others as you treat yourself? Now I have transcent my knowledge of love in a more higher level, but have you? Love without action is no love! Our today's situation is just vulnerable as the time of kesultanan Melaka, where Sultan Mahmud take over Sultan Manshoor's place!

I met a couple of police today caught my friend for riding motocycle without helmet, and they did not corrupt but give saman straight to him, and this has started my fire that there is still obedient servants in this world. Obedient because they believe they put their hope as an example to the people around them, and obedient because they still love their country and do what is must to maintain the balance of justice and peace. I hope that God will one day revive Malaysia and make this country a better country for the future generation sake. Things has been hidden from us nearly 10 decades, shall we review it and see through it with love but not out of tolerance? Should we better love one another than to foolishly blind ourselves and live a non-authentic life? Should we play with invisible parang or should we better not to play any kind of parang at all?

I think too much for these few days, please forgive me if I have been to harsh in my usage of language, but this is the way how I express myself. I am sick, having cough and soar throat and headache, please do not let me suffer because of the folly mindset that we all have, I am tired, I am not a man that can withstand large responsibilities. Please forgive me.

In love and frustration
-ThomasLifeScript-

The Silent Fall

The night did not swallow all the tiredness away, everyday wake up in the morning the mind doesn't healthy enough to think that the end is near. How many chances you require to live? Is it doesn't matter because of some body else is paying your debts by their lives? Have you ever think about how would you always going tired and never have the energy to proceed on the resilience that once you had? I was wondering are you still with God right now or has you done away with Him and do all things in your own will power? Where are your prayers? Where is the daily bread? Where is the energy gone? Hasn't it been wasted on unnecessary places? You have wandered far here and already taste the sweetness in God, and yet you foolishly turn away from God and now taste the bitterness of loneliness!

Silent! This fall has proven, you have the potential of becoming a fallen one, the one who given up Godly ways and its righteousness, and surrendered to the world. Where have you lay your rest in while you are tired? Whom do you seek first as you are getting lost? You ask who can understand the tiredness in you and assume no one understand that? But I truely tell you that God knows it even though I don't.

Thomas, are you frustrated to something? Or has you focusing in the wrong thing? Do you really have the ability to take charge and responsibility that you hold now? Have you sloth? Or are you already all out and do not have enough energy to go on? How come you have saturated yourself with this kind of confussion? Can't you seek the Kingdom of God first? Can't you seek His presence first whenever you are and whatever you do? Why is so much pain is arised from your own and not from outside? The affliction you had is folly, and it is one of the spiritual pollutant. Please, I urge you to wake up and take up His cross, if you are lack of peace ask for it, if you lack of love ask for it, if you lack of joy then ask for it. For God is a God of comfort, and Jehovah Jireh.

"If you then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your father in heaven give the holy spirit to those who ask him!" - Luke 11:13(NIV)

ASK THEN YOU SHALL RECEIVE!

I have fallen, please brothers and sisters build me up, because when I truely fallen I am muted, so I write it out here. As though you have seen me tired and effortless these few days, I am shadowing myself away from God already. Please bring me back! I still have a lot of assignment to rush, and the revision work and my services in the church, why have such little things bother me until I fallen away? Why? Have I not serving and leading joyfully? Does God stops blessing when we stop asking? ... Then I shall say may your will be done...

累了，疲倦了，还有谁会董？不要让我难做...

Unexpectedly Resourceful

Unbelievable, unpredictable, and undeniable that God is so resourceful! It has been the third time God spare me from shower of rain, I can see clearly that the clouds were cut into halves and rained both sides of the region of kampar but not in new town. Yesterday was rushing too, although the rain tail hit us but not severe, it was totally miracle! I was filled with a feeling that I am so protected by him like he is an unbrella to me. But sadly I still have Him dissapointed of me, because I keep sinning, I mean the sin of omission. Well I do really ignore His command sometimes, and it was intensify these couple of days. How can I fix it if my heart is unwilling? >.< Sometimes I even does sin of commission. I recall the day when God reminded me about Exodus 20, the ten commandments, and day by day I getting more and more pride and complacency... how may I help myself in this situation? God I need you to change my mind, if not one day I did not willing to change, I will not change at all, I must desire to change to be more like Christ.  It seems like I am saturated already, it was a mistake to let my spirit at rest that day, now I really ready to fall, because when my spirit rest, the devil action take place in me. Whenever I turn to my own ways, that is the time when devil attack me.

Why I did not have the feeling to commit to God right now? Did not God has protected me from so many thing? Why I do not looks like I care about my relationship with God anymore? Why suddenly all turned upside down? Or do I too busy with my own will on doing all the assignments then neglected the spiritual living? For what I know this is spiritual dryness... but I confess I did not take action to feed my spirit recently, already counted today is day 5, how could I starve my spirit to death still slothing away not to feed him? Sorry I have to write it all out that comes into my mind so that I can see clearly here rather than putting everything in the cognitive level that everything is abstract. I really want to invite all brothers and sisters that visits here to pray for me, at first I thought is was something wrong with my time management and task management only, but now I see the deeper problem I am facing, that is my attitude start to turning back to it's auto-pilot direction, I have to change the program, change my thoughts and attitude, so that I may change my course to move closy with God. I needed this in order to grow more mature, or else eventually I dries up and wither...

But undeniable that God is so resourceful even that He has made me resourceful in my studies and also plenty of friends to help up each others. For even now I started to take charge to make a spark in the engine of my assignment groups so that everyone is get moving. I hope that all the draft work can be done before we come back from CNY. I was waiting someone to take the lead especially the appointed group leaders... I couldn't wait... I don't know what happen to me recently, I think it is good to be impatient of getting everyone work ealier, than being too kind for the sloth to take over. "Sloth" I mention here is not refer to anyone, but the attitude in us. I admit I have a sloth in me too, can't you see how it effects my spiritual life now? Well come back to my studies, I believe God give not only to me the resources to learn effectively, but to all my classmates too, thank God that we have some coaches in our accademic life than those "living textbooks" (I am talking about the lecturers) No, I did not expect them to spoon feed me, but fortunately that they didn't, because I wanted to take the challenge for real. God had give so many thing so I just wanted to thank Him now, though I am still feeling guilty of my sins.

"JEHOVAH JIRER - GOD THE PROVIDER"

"BUT DO NOT LET THE SLOTH TO TAKE YOU OVER;

THY SPIRIT SHALL NOT REST IN THE WORLD;

BUT IN GOD YOUR SPIRIT SHALL REST."