My 20th Birthday!

My 20th Birthday!


Wow last night was a wonderful night and I get to celebrate with my classmates and had a wonderful dinner together. Later on in Shalom house also celebrated my birthday with moon cake festival along. We go out played lanterns and light the path along Westlake. So cool and crazy night! Thanks to you all. I never had a party like this before.

Nevertheless, exam is coming to its end. Tomorrow is the day, the last stand of our first semester. The first thing I am going to miss is “the girl I crushed on” lolx. Whatever we are going to meet soon after two weeks time. Unfortunately, my misbehave makes me double my work load to study this last subject, introductory psychology. I mean today is my birthday still needs to study…

It’s okay I got it, and I got a reason to study that is what makes my study more important than annual celebrations. I am not shy to share my reason, so I’ll share it out loud here.

“The reason that I came here to study psychology because, it is my calling and my life purpose is to live as blessing of others. I have another motivation is that after getting good grades and attain a first class honors in my certificate may give impression to my future employers. I am doing it for the sake of helping profession, and to develop my career in this field. My dream was to become a successful public speaker, author and trainer that unlock other’s true potential. As the most important thing I wanted to share here that is, this Uni life was just a beginning to prepare a good life that I could give her happiness and build up a happy family.”

Sounds great? I really hope that she knows it and also do better in life. This is the few steps walking in to a successful career life and happy love life too. I love ya.

Happy reading^^

Is Slothfulness A SIN?

Is Slothfulness A SIN?


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Today I was frustrated with myself of not doing my true force out to study. After numerous struggle of bitterness in my heart I start to realize that I had been idle and uncaring. I don’t even feel the fear of the consequences of failing the major papers in the exam, how can I be so calm? I just seek for personal satisfaction all the time. The unexplainable thing is whenever I wanted to pursue on reading the text I start to fall asleep, and most of the students also had it. Is this a curse or our misbehave? But when I played games then I am awake, and after finished playing I became sleepy again. Another possibility is that the game makes me tired, but I don’t know whether it is true?


If you read through my blogs, you find me sleep a lot more than usual. I sleep 8 hours and had a siesta for another 3-4 hours equivalent to 50% of the day wasted sleeping. I even had irregular time frame of sleeping too. This is a bad habit I say it is a plausible explanation for my relentless lifestyle that forcing myself to study. The outcome is slothfulness. I began to be very childish and search for gratification from fantasies my mind in some wild dreams and it took hours and also had an after effect in every movement I make. It is embarrassing because I did not pay attention to others and all thinking is about me, me and me.


Slothfulness is also an aspect of death I can introduce it into the ten I said last time[a]. This can be seen from the reason of the extinction of sloths in this world. Prov. 10:4 Lazy hands make a man poor, but diligent hands bring wealth. 5 He who gathers crops in summer is a wise son, but he who sleeps during harvest is a disgraceful son. This is very applicable to my situation right now. I did not stay awake to harvest, and I hadn’t sow seed either[b].


I don’t know how to deal with this and the exam is coming nearer. http://www.lifeoptimizer.org/2008/02/21/16-powerful-tips-to-overcome-laziness/ Here is some tips to handle. But I don’t have time I guess I’ll just do whatever at least has study a little. Give God an input.


Happy reading… and shares your thoughts here.

SLEEPING FRENZY

Sleeping Frenzy

Today is Monday and I planned to finish at least two chapters of my research method studies today, but I am still very sleepy even when I woke up early and slept early so I haven’t come up with anything yet. I just finished draw out the outline mind map or concept map then slept again in the afternoon after taking lunch and shopping in Tesco with some friends.

Okay since there is still temptation to be mad of myself because I sleep so much, so I started to reason up so I wouldn’t hurt myself by forcing me not to sleep because I haven’t done my things yet. I come up with, what about having a siesta in the afternoon since I had been burn out over some sleep“less” nights and tired because just recover from sickness. It is okay to let the body to rest a little while longer since previously already work out so hard. Therefore in the end, there is no reason to be negative about because body also need to be take care of because it is a temple of God anyway. I did tell God through my blogs also that I will clean the temple for Him yet I think I already made Him mad because I did not take care of my body very well recently. *chucked* Whatever, I will do my best to reach it. The lesson for today is about “Autopilot”. The natural thought in us each and every day.

“Our life was like driving a boat and wherever we go some place we switch our autopilot, just like when you are supposed to head east and it was auto piloted to east. But, when we wanted to change course to west we must change our program of the autopilot to head west not by forcing it through the steering wheel and hold it by force.”

Yes, your direction may change while you force it, but have you ever think that it is stressful and tired and finally you give up easily when you are tired? Then you let go of your wheel and it heads back to the old self and attitude again. What we need to start is from our thoughts not from action yet. Think and then action, it is neither action then think nor thinking without action. Everything starts in your thoughts first. Change your mind and thinking; change your life course. Just like a balloon, while you change your altitude you change direction. Don’t force yourself to do something you really you don’t wanted to, but change your mind and set your desire to do what is necessary. About the desire thing you should better go in and ask your inner child, what is that and how it works? Know him/her better, and then you will control yourself better. Warning, don’t be quick to judge the child, teach him/her in love and care and please, don’t push too hard and control him with rules and disciplines, but the rules of love. The truth about this is that the inner child in us can grow mature with love and care, don’t be hesitant and reluctant to take the first step to grow yourselves up. I agree that spiritual growth is neither instantaneous nor voluntary and you need to make a commitment to grow it and will gone through numerous resistances. This also applies to our mental growth too, not intellectual but your frame of mind and the perception that you use to see things, which layman refer this as EQ and personality. Which is more important than IQ that stated by some successful people.

“Happy Reading and please comment it so I could improve more. Cheers!”

Say Cheese!

SAY CHEESE!

Today is another new day, so happy that my sickness heals so fast and thanks to God for healing me when I am asleep. While there is a lot reason to feel angry about last night and this morning too, but I still trying to keep myself cool to feel happy all the time. Last night I was lost control of myself to edit my new blogspot, and trying to catch up with the standards of my friends. Well working over stress still it is not a good thing but unfortunately I slept from 8:30 PM and wake at 12:00 AM and start to work whole midnight till six in the morning. Thanks to God that this doesn’t affect my health and be able to go church this morning. While I am in the morning service I really can’t ignore that I am upset that I did not do great in improving my relationship with God and I even argued with little Thomas in me.

I am sorry to myself that I was mad about something and I need to learn how to be cheerful only can handle things well. This is what my all my friends wish to see, a happy and cheerful Thomas. Only when I am happy they will feel happy also. Instead of seeking happiness among friends why don’t I become the source of cheerfulness? Didn’t I live to be a blessing of many?

             Honestly I don’t know what God is telling me even I yell at him he still remains silent. So why don’t I waiting his call and guidance in patient and remains happy? I had to admit that I can become addicted to self-punishment and get too addicted to the negative emotion in me. In conclusion I have a low EQ and easy to get upset and aggressed. It is okay, I’ve got it. Give me time to learn everyone and I will be there for you all when in need. I got the desire to care for you so that is where I made my commitment too. Love you ya’ll guys.

Memory - Notice or Ignore?

Memory - Notice or ignore?


Technically mind is what brain does, so where does our memory stores? Funny to know that our brain is so powerful yet it has its own blocking system to make us aware of certain thing and neglect other selected impulses. In psychology we studied that the brain has a tendency to do sensitization and habituation, which use to explain the thing we choose to notice and ignore. Example, like while you’re preparing your music scores in a silent room, you will hear the clock ticking or even the sound of the movement of the fan. But slowly when you focus your thoughts to write on the music sheets, your mind starts to ignore those impulses, and your mind will be obsessed by the music you’re thinking to write. Our mind is choosy isn’t it? In the Weber’s law also talk about this, we human can sense an impulse if it reach certain intensity and they called it the threshold. Weber was right, but I wanted to challenge that we can control our thoughts and thus, we can choose consciously to notice something that we use to sense. I got an argument that sometimes when we do like that we will have certain amount of expectation of the things we choose to notice and sometimes we even interpret it wrongly. This makes imaginary senses that don’t exist, and people say this has a tendency of having illusion and hallucination, psychological disorder like schizophrenia and so on. Did you notice that when you start focusing on something, you wouldn’t be able to sense the things other than what your thoughts are focusing on? Since we can’t focus on many things in the same time so can we change our focus fast enough to cope with that? I think so, but it hasn’t come out with a very good outcome. When you study and listening to music, you can either knowing what you are reading and listen to some unknown sounds playing or you can only hears and think about the music and you can keep on reading aloud without understanding what you are reading.

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Futher updates and findings will be dicuss later on. I am going to make this another topic in my blogs. Happy reading = )

Second Chapter 第二章

Second Chapter 第二章。
I plan to start a new chapter in my life again. Last chapter includes a lot of about pain, suffering and responsibility. All that is rather pessimistic and life has no tendency of being happy. But in this new chapter, I am going to change my perception to be more positive and happy. I will give a theme to this new chapter and that is copy righted from VRI “Just appreciate all the time we spend together that is the happiest thing in the world. This is what friends are all about right?” Since she “pinda rumah” to bloggers.com I also start a brand new chapter.
To feel happy or sad also is a person’s choice, whether you want to stay unhappy over a matter or get up and lived happily also is a choice. No one will able to change how you feel, only you can. So why feel sad, when you are sad you will just make people around you sad also. You don’t want it don’t you?
The real name for this chapter of my life script is actually, the essence of happiness. I hope to fill my future life with love and joy. Making other people happy is my goal for this new chapter. Happy reading.

我本性就是像火一样

我本性就是像火一样。
今天我很火热，虽然我还是有喜乐在心里，但不代表我不会发怒。今天天气很热，但是我心中的火烧得比太阳更加热，我生气了，但是我是在生谁的气呢？是我？我老师？还是某某人喔？生气中要快乐起来都难。我现在才发现，我们做人不见棺材不流泪，到了死期才来抱佛脚。没用的。我知道，是因为不管现在撒几多的种子不能在一夜长大的。学业也是这样，考试前，就要把我们所计划的种子数量调好还有开始撒在肥沃的泥土里。慢慢的用恒心和爱心照顾它。当我们学习的时候，就是代表了我们给它的光，肥料和水量。上帝已经给了我们一面肥沃的土，为什么不早一点开始撒种呢？到了收获期间才来放肥料，水和光，种子那里可以长大喔？所以呀，我现在很内疚，但是这次的失败留下了一个教训，也给了我一堆的火，给了我勇气和希望，因为我知道的只有一件事，就是要更强大，下一个Semester我要证明种子的道理是无法辩论的。CGPA4.0 你看着吧，我不是疯子，而是有很大的梦想，所以我一定要更强。为什么我要打着一场战是因为要保护别人的精神和态度。虽然第一次战败了，下一次你就知道，我汤姆斯不是容易被打败的人。为了爱他人我一定要稳定下去，坚持到底！ Life like a boat. My attitude most likely is like Kurosaki Ichigo. “我要打倒你！”来吧！WARG!!!!!