Autonomy vs Shame

My dear friend why do you cast your soul down, Oh my friend?

Wasn't that the scripture has said the Joy of the Lord is my strenght?

If you are not joyous how would the One love you most (God) be joyous?

Even as a friend seeing you defeating yourself, I am hurt, how much more it will be for the father who have created you?

I don't like to judge who you are, but I did, and I am sorry.

I always believe God has a great plan for you my friend,

I believe you are not who you really are and who God created you to be.

Why you wanted to choose your own way instead of the way of the Lord which works?

I bear testimony of Him who has help me,

He changed me from the inside out,

My thoughts, my feelings and maturity.

I don't wanted to boast but this is the greatness of God who has changed me!

If I may, I would wanted to say you are having problem in the second stage of Erikson's psychosocial stages.

From there you cling unto your parents and significant others so much,

you do not have your own stand?

This is the time for independence, if you retreat in the middle of the battle field, you will just clash on to the people behind you and blocking the movement of those who have courage.

If you are continuing with such fear, how much you can stand when the true persecution come?

If you continue with such fear, what can be done to glorify God?

Where is your faith my dear?

Where is your love my dear?

For true love cast out fear!

With faith all things are possible!

I will just pray that the fruit of the holy spirit will bear in you!

You have hear the spirit is willing but the body is weak, yes!

We have to be weak so God only can help you!

If you still cling unto yourself, you are digging a grave!

To dig a hole so hard  why not choose life?

Jesus say he came to give life but do you recieve it?

You believe you saved by Him but do you live like one that have been saved?

I am sorry that I desperated here, but this is out of the anger that God feels too.

However I wanted to thank you for your weakness and stuborness that I saw the time when I was like you. Thank God that He put you here with me, I learn a lot of things. I've earned it. I've earned the heart beat of God and I can see all my flaws too. But guilt has no power over me, shame has no power over me! Because there is no other name higher than the name of the Lord!

I hope you understand...