The answer is no. It is not stumbling, but simply is the craziness become reality... I just wanna to be myself that is all. I know, I am a violent person, use rude words, and blame God. I hated myself so much because of Him. Leaving God is not an option but left me no choice to continue to hate myself. Although He taught me not to condemn myself and He say He wasn't going to condemn me anyway but real change is not there. I just don't see it. I waited 2 years spending submissively and obediently follow what He taugh me seems like not effective at all. Yet I discover the trueself in me is a total darkness and evil. What I teach always is about how evil decieve people yet did not abide to what the devil's scheme are cause it was too scary and unholy.
There is no middle road, cause without going in God's path is dead end.
I don't know what I am saying now but... either way, I am hanging in between good and bad. I'm tired figthing for the Good and I am still the enemy of the bad... I don't know where I stand now. When I am thinking back, did I not doing very well in follow God's command so I fall away? But I had tried my best not to, yet it proves helpless when I fail to prepare the soil for the rain to pour in... Then He don't even border those who are weak that can't prepare the field for the rain. How? It wasn't foolist that they weak don't want the blessing, but since the illustration give birth the this decietful thought that we must do our best in order to get God's favor then only He blesses.
I don't know this is simply a bad logic I could think of right now...
Correct me please. I know I am wrong, but this is what I see... It is true God only favor those who are strong enough to hold His command. It always has been. Favoritism... also is what I find in God... that is why I jealous of others... Looks like Darwin's natural selection has won the debate in this statement when it comes to strongest lives and weak hell they go.
##*9月18日*## -- 胡言乱语
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这几天都在下大雨,很多地方都开始淹水了。看到北海一些沿海的海鲜餐厅被洪水淹没,很多商场也因为暴风雨造成了很多的损坏。突然想起,好像很多年没有经历这样的雨季了。
小时候,每年到了8、9月,就会面对很多地方淹水,需要防水。我记得小时候有一次,我们到了学校,但是水淹到了腰部,校长就让我们都回家了。那是我们第一次因为淹...
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